Nearly three months after a devastating boat collision off the coast of Anse Cochon that claimed four lives, the owner of one of the vessels involved has opened up about the relentless grief the tragedy has left him with, pushing back against widespread misperceptions that he has remained unaffected by the incident. Irenus Pascal, owner of the boat *Cazorla Jr*, used his second appearance before the public Commission of Inquiry into the July 18 collision to correct the narrative that emerged from his initial testimony. Pascal told the panel he walked away from his first questioning deeply frustrated by how his words and demeanor were interpreted, and that he felt compelled to set the record straight for both the inquiry commissioners and the general public. “I just want this panel and the wider public to know that the last time I was called for questioning, I was not happy at all with the way it appeared or was made to look that I am not sad about what happened on July 18th,” Pascal stated. The deadly incident unfolded when *Cazorla Jr* collided with a second vessel, *Ocean Angel*, in waters off Anse Cochon, leaving four people dead. For Pascal, the loss is not an abstract event: he personally knew each of the victims, and he still crosses paths with their grieving families regularly, encounters that only deepen his pain. “Four people died. I knew those persons and also know their family and I feel even more hurt every time I see those family members,” he said. From the night of the crash to the present day, the weight of the tragedy has never lifted, Pascal explained. “From the time of the incident to this day, I have had sleepless nights,” he shared. He added that after receiving a surprise summons for Wednesday’s hearing late the previous night, he was unable to fall back asleep, and instead passed the hours writing out his statement to make sure his feelings were accurately communicated. “We all wish that this unfortunate accident never happened,” he told the commission. Pascal’s testimony came as the official inquiry continues to gather firsthand accounts from those touched by the collision, digging into the circumstances of the crash and its long-term aftermath. Over the course of public hearings held to date, survivors have already shared harrowing recollections of the panic, chaos, and life-altering injuries they experienced in the collision’s immediate aftermath, trauma that continues to shape their lives months later. For Pascal, his second appearance before the commission was far more than a procedural requirement: it was a critical chance to counter false narratives and confirm that he too carries the permanent scars of that dreadful day. “Again, I continue to feel very bad and wish that we didn’t need to be here trying to find out exactly what happened on that dreadful day,” he said.